How I Am

When I want to…
I talk slow
My voice is deep, quite raspy
I whisper
I look at you straight in the eye then leave you with a lingering glance after a long while
I speak my mind
I never falter, never miss a beat, and observe closely (and watch closely…)
I say what I want to say and make you think what I want you to think
My movements are deliberately chosen

I am snobbish
I act like a spoiled rotten princess
I act, and keep on acting
I trample you with the words I have carefully chosen to speak
I dare you
I demand you to look at me and admire (and keep admiring…)
I let your whole consciousness revolve around me
I take your breath and your wits awayI manipulate

I am addicted to vanity
I care less and I am ruthless
I splurge on my desire without caution
I define what is wrong and what is right
I don’t intend to please
I don’t give a fuck
I say fuck whenever I want to
I make known the terms I want you to abide with
I deceive

I decline
I push you to your limits and drive you mad, even insane
I do everything my way
I intimidate you
I grab hold of your attention
I enjoy every minute that I piss you
I crush you
I cause you pain and pleasure
I would and could blow your mind

This is how I am when I want to.

I close my eyes seductively
I am a tease and I seduce
I thirst for the kill and go for it like hell
I burn, I throb, I ache
I am a free spirit with a wild heart
I love deeply and passionately
I could let you tame me and hold my reins
I am a hopeless romantic
I am hopeless and romantic

I make love
I make love even without touching
I feel deeply, brazenly
I am vulnerable
I tremble and shiver
I could be yours
I could love you
I could give you everything you would never even have thought of asking
I dare you

This is how I really am:
Complicated.
True.
Trusting.
Vulnerable.
Naïve.
Can you handle me?


This is how I am.
Love me.