26 March 2008

the wait is over

Just when do you know that the long wait is over? They say it is when you have found yourself before the crossroad, at the foot of the bridge you are bound to cross, upon reaching the finish line, when you have finally caught your shooting star… when you have finally found the one -- that one person who would put an end to the waiting restless soul in you.

But in truth, the waiting is never really over. Even after you have chosen a path, crossed the bridge, gone past the finish line and caught all the fallen stars of the heavens. No, not even when you have finally found that one person you know will be the last you will ever love. Because it is only you who is bound to end all the waiting. It shall only be over when you say it is over.

So when will you say that the wait is finally over? When should you? Should you?

Often times, it seems that there is nothing you can do about it, as if there is no other choice for you but to wait. But there is another choice, a choice not to wait. To stop waiting once and for all. But even after knowing that, you know that in your heart of hearts, you would still choose to wait, you would still want to wait; no matter how difficult and painfully long it will take. It is so when it is love that you have decided to wait for.

No matter how much it hurts you to do so, no matter how much it breaks you to give more, even if you feel that you are not enough and there is nothing more that you can offer; you still go on doing, still keep on giving the best that you can as much as you can. You still keep waiting. You keep hoping. You just wait. And somehow, by some miracle and sheer luck, you realize that there is still a little more that you can do and a little more that you can give. You allow yourself to wait a little longer, and hope a little more. And it only takes one simple reason… you love. And so you wait.

So tell me, when will you finally say that the wait is over? When can you? Can you? Do let me know, I beg of you… because I just can’t.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Let me share something with you...


"Finding the right person is very hard and very wrong...It is best to be the right person for the one you love and start from there...You'll always end up disappointed when you set the standards and define a "RIGHT PERSON" for you... And don't rush things coz somewhere somehow God is preparing somebody for you."

Don't be in a hurry to get into a relationship because you can never find love if you insist that you are ready into it. Try to find time to really understand your real feelings, to know who you really are, and what you really want
in a relationship... There's no such thing as a perfect relationship, but there's a compatible partnership that goes along with it. If you already knew that you are too big to fit into a small sized t-shirt, don't give it a try. You'll probably break it and pay for the damages you have made.

If you knew and felt that the relationship will not last, don't go deeper into it. You'll just suffer the consequences and live like hell for the rest of your life.

It's really hard to say goodbye though, but you can't make it any better by just pretending you still have the same feelings.

Try to let go and give yourself a chance to live life to the fullest. Give yourself a chance to grow and give your heart a much needed attention. Then you will find that you have made the right decision and you made it all by yourself.

We call it love when we can't leave someone and see them crying as we try to let go. We are wrong - it's just pity. We call it love when we're too attached and think that losing the one we love will somehow make us weak and unable
to face the storms of life. We misunderstood - it's just that we're too much dependent on them. We call it love when we give our whole life to them, the wholeness of us and imagined that if they leave, no one would accept us and our past. We are mistaken - it's just insecurity.

But no matter what the definition is, the truth still remains that love isn't something that you can buy or beg. It is real and existing. You can't touch it but you can feel it in your heart. You can't find it, but it will knock before you when you least expect it to come even in the most unconventional situation as you can imagine... It can make you the happiest soul in heaven, but don't forget that it can also make you the most miserable person in the whole galaxy....

So take your time and don't rush things. Most of all, know your self-worth and love yourself. Nobody will take advantage of you and nobody has the right to make you feel bad - UNLESS YOU ALLOW THEM TO DO SO.

Anonymous said...

wow.

everything was just laid out there. she/he is SO right.

i guess, the best thing to do right now is to prepare ourselves, re-define what and who we are. and just wait for that right person who will never leave us and hurt us the way our pasts have hurt us.

i just hope we won't wait that long.

and hopefully, when the right time comes, we are ready to accept them and be that kind of person we really are. it's worth the wait, it's worth the shot, it's worth taking risk, and it's worth loving.